After a while

You just realize that you're the horrible friend.

I've been excruciatingly cranky to people. And lately, I've been overly emotional.
Too emotional.
I don't know how my friends, or even some people, can put up with that.
Every single day.
That's what makes me appreciate my friends the most.

Those who can't handle you at your worst, definitely don't deserve you at your best.

I should just disappear. Or maybe transform into a cat.
Shouldn't that suffice? :3

A lot has been happening these past few months.

Good things, thats for sure. Bad things, those just can't be avoided.
And to summarize everything I'll just say its been building up character. For me, and most of us.

Relationships between people had been bittersweet, rocky, oh just everything.
I hate SPM. It makes me think twice about everything I'm about to do. Wait, that's good. Nevermind. Moving on.

My inner voice, I believe, is currently hibernating. I've been doing more wrongs than rights.

Climbing fences, keeping secrets I don't think I should be keeping, going behind my parents back. I've been a horrible child.

And God feels like he's still right there. Giving me second chances every now and then and I keep. On. Doing. The. Same. Mistakes.

Worthless

Who even fails math nowadays? who gets bloody low marks for moral?
I even bet up a kid. I had my reasons but I don't think those reasons were good enough to beat. Him. Up. Its a monstrosity, no. I'm a monstrosity.

Sometimes.

At many points of life, I wonder what am I doing here when I'm obviously not good enough for anything. I'm not helping anyone. I suck at cheering people up. No lives rare brightened thanks to me.

What am I doing here?

I forgot to mention

A kid grabbed my ass.

What the actual bloody habibah.

When it rains

Things get wet. Very wet.

I can't say the same goes for my cheeks though. They're quite dry, if you exclude the facial moisture and humidity.

I haven't been on for a looonnng time now. I miss you blogger :( and the reason isn't even legitimate. I just didn't want to go on because I refuse to type a post on this bloody piece of touch screen block. It feels so dead. It just doesn't feel the same. Anywho, life has been long. Or at least that's what it felt like.

I honestly don't know what to feel about it.
I'm just a ball of undecided emotions.
What with SPM just around the corner. 68 days to be exact.
Where did all the time go?
On one end, I'm awfully glad it's going to be over, and on the other I'm just not ready to go through this.

OMAGAS

HELLO CIVILISATION.

I haven't seen you in a while baby, where have you been?
I miss cyberspace. Its been so so lobg :(

Life has been ugly.
My dad was hospitalised. I had second thoughts. My mom had a breakdown. Then it was my turn.

When the lights are out.

I feel gaseous.

I tried putting it in the nicest way possible.